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Mother's day/The good ......................
Mother's day/The good ...................... Well first off I'd like to wish all of the FuckBookHookups mom's a happy mother's day! Having already had to suffer through birth, I'm sure some of you felt that was easy compared to the "special" breakfast that was prepared for you this morning. Still, as a mom, you know it was made with love. That's all that really counts. In our life time we turn to our mothers for so much, and being who they are (Our mom's) they are always there for us, no matter what. Some like me, well my mother passed away some years back, and today is one of those days that I wish I could talk with her again. The last time we did talk was sort of special too me, as she wasn't with me for very much longer after that. At the time my ex and I were going through what would become a bitter break up and divorce. My mind occupied with my troubled marriage,and the money problems I was facing due to my ex's spend crazy ways I guess I was pretty much wrapped up in my own personal hell at the time. When I get moody, or introspective I tend to clam up. While visiting Mom at the nursing home where she had taken up residence after suffering her third stroke she sensed my distraction. Well she was my Mom after all, the woman knew me from birth, and could tell when something was bothering me. We talked for a bit, discussing this and that..how's the job? How she was getting along? Has anyone else from the family been by lately? How my were doing? The silly things you chat about with a mom. Then out of the blue she said something that knocked me for a loop. She told me that I had been a good ..well her statement floored me. Now in my family love was often never expressed out loud, in fact I could count on one hand the number of times the phrase "I love you" was said among my brothers, or from one of my parents. The thing was, the love was there, just never stated. But her saying to me "you've been a good " Brought me out of the funk I'd been in. It made me realize that someone really loved me for me. That even though I was failing at something as important as being a husband and provider that in the end it didn't really matter. For with her statement she gave me my self worth back, made me see that I was an ok guy and that things would turn out better. She made me smile again as only a Mom could do. A few weeks later I lost her, and although I wasn't able to be there when she passed away (long story involving the ex) I knew it didn't matter to her if I had been there or not, as Mom knew how I felt about her, and she about me. In the following days, I never cried, the sadness just wouldn't come. Making arrangements for her funeral, the viewings, the wake....all those things didn't matter much, Mom and I had connected that day in her room and had said our good-byes. The trappings of the funeral were to Honor her memory and the life she lived. I miss my mom sometimes, many days I wish we could just talk again. But it's comforting to know that she has gone on to a well deserved rest. I love you Mom, but then you know that, you always did. Happy Mother's Day ladies! Have a good one! Tim |
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